I thought about suicide all the time, but it seemed toomuch effort, swallowing all those pills or jumping off things. If I'd lived out in the country I would have found a quiet stretch of railway track, and lain on it, fallen asleep, so that I would never have known when my last moment came. In London, the minimum tube fare had gone up so much that even to get near the line cost a fortune. Suicide seemed an extravagance I couldn't afford. People never leave you alone, either; I knew that if I'd tried to lie down on the line, any number of commuters would have pulled me off again, so that I didn't delay their train. There must have been murderers out there who wanted to kill, with no way of finding those who wanted to be dead. If there had been some way of contacting them, a date-with-death line, I would have called them to set up a meeting. The current ways of death seemed too haphazard; it was all left up to chance. Had Chance come up, tapped me on the shoulder, said "Oi, you - long black tunnel, white light, off you go, " I wouldn't have complained. It was like having frostbite all over - feeling numb and in pain at the same time. .Helena Dela
About This Quote
In this quote by Sylvia Plath, the author is describing her feelings of despair, stating that she had been thinking about suicide for a while and had been contemplating different methods of accomplishing a goal. Plath also demonstrates a great deal of pessimism and a lack of optimism in her writing, but she did not want to kill herself or run away from her problems. Instead, she shows a sense of determination and purpose. The last line of the quote is the most important part of the quote.
It shows that she was definitely not committed to killing herself. She did not want to die and did everything in her power to stay alive. In fact, she was even willing to go through pain in order to stay alive.
She was not going to give up hope either. This shows that there were still some things in the world worth living for - if only for a short while.
Source: The Count
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